If you are like me then you have spent the majority of your life chasing, problem solving, striving, hustling to become something. To make something of yourself. To be successful. Whether you are in a structured company or an entrepreneur you are striving to grow, to expand, to move up and to hit goals. There is nothing wrong with this.
I worked for a company for 10 years that I absolutely loved. It felt good to be part of a team and to be part of a successful group of people.The company became part of my identity. Even though I loved the company I worked for, I loved my coworkers and clients; I woke up everyday with stress, anxiety, fear, insecurities, frustration and so on. How could this be?
I would tell myself how lucky I was to be part of such a wonderful company and team. How lucky I was to have bosses that are so enlightened and generous. But still I felt uneasy. I began to want out. Even when it logically didn’t make sense. I was financially abundant and even had freedom within the company. Was I ungrateful?
I began to think something was wrong with me. Maybe I could never be fully happy. Maybe I was broken. Everything else was so perfect after all, so I must be fundamentally flawed in some way. I had absolutely no logical reason to be unhappy in my career. But I was.